Challenge - My 500 Words D1

I have this overwhelming feeling that 2014 is going to be an amazing year. I recalled back to the start of 2013 and I thought about certain things I wanted to accomplish. Many of the things in my list were for which I am very grateful. This will be another big year. I hope to accomplish some major life goals.

One thing that was not completed in 2013 was my dissertation. The delay was in part because of me but mainly obstacles out my control (most of which were from my institution). I was a bitter party of one for a while but now that I am close I must keep my eye on the prize. I hope to defend in the beginning of February, God willing!

Another milestone coming this year… I am turning 40. I am at a good place in my life in terms of having a husband and daughter that I love. But, career-wise, what I envisioned for my life did not come to be. I can be honest with myself and most of that has to do with my procrastinating nature. I am too laid back. I lack the fire that many have. I think that is in part why I am pushing myself to do this challenge. I have wanted to write a book for a long time. I keep coming up with excuses. At the end I am all talk and little action. I want to stop that. I am about to be 40. There is not room for ratchet, lazy, excuses. I need to get it together and take it to the next level, for me! I owe it to myself to go for it.

I read a quote to that said something to the effect, don’t tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon. I tell myself the sky is the limit. I am my own roadblock. I am my own speed bump in life. How can I have been ok with this behavior for so long? I look at people who are living their dreams and I have the never to want their lives but not the work they put in. What sense does that make? I need a change from within. I mean life altering, not for a week or two after the New Year. Not a resolution, but a way of life. I want to be infamous in my memories. I want to go to bed at night proud of myself. Feeling like I lived to the fullest that day.

I have my marching orders. I see my path to 2015. I want my 2014 yearend review to be even more accomplished than 2013. I want to throw the ball to the wall and go for it. So I take a step today. I will take one tomorrow, then the next after that. I pray for all others who have chosen to embark on this journey. I hope their 500 words are amazing and moving. I hope it leads them to their new way of life. I hope everyone goes to bed a not feeling proud of themselves and that they lived this day to the fullest!!!